Monday 5 December 2011

The Lonely Heart

He was still sitting there astonished and amazed, "No, its impossible! It can't be me" he wondered. Just then the announcer repeated his name once again and he reluctantly stood up and with a slow pace he made his way towards the stage, all eyes followed him. Tears rolled down his cheeks when the chief guest presented him with the honor ;the honor of being the only Asian student to secure the top most rank in that highly esteemed international university. It was the first time in history. The hall echoed with applaud and every single person present there acknowledged his victory. The international media was giving live coverage to the event but he the one in limelight didn't seem to bother about it.

He, the winner, didn't pay attention to anything around and was actually hating every inch of that event. The slideshow of past years  which was racing in his mind made his condition worst. How could he ever forget those scornful looks and pitiful gestures of people who treated him worse than animals just because he was an orphan! And oh how could he ever forget being rejected by childless couples at the orphanage who rejected him solely because he had a dark complexion. And that time when he was only given a meager amount of food to eat and despite his craving for more food he was never given any more food but scoldings and beatings only.

And now today when he is a successful and a well reputed man nobody seems to care that he was an orphan  and......wait  nobody even bothers that he has a dark complexion and despite the fact that there was a time when he was not given enough food today he has plenty of people awaiting to have food with him at five star hotel. H should be happy now, shouldn't he? But no he isn't and often wonders "Ah what a mean world it is ! where everyone is a fair weather friend. Where everyone is beside you when want to share your joy and celebrate your happiness and victory but no one literally no one is is there to share your sorrows and give you a shoulder to cry on and no one to console you.

                                            A thorn is pinching my heart
                                       No one other than pain to hug me
                                            Alone in a sea of emotions
                                               Drowning in feeling
                                                      Why?
                                   Why does everyone hurt me so much?
                                  That only nature and trees bring me glee
                                       My eardrums feel like bursting
                                            When the birds chirp
                                            Why can't I be happy?
                                                I am drowning
                                   The happiness inside me can't breath